I can only assume that Princess Kate has been reading my blog, so thank you so much for honoring my own Grumpy Toddler (real name Charlotte Elizabeth) with the Royal Baby. Prince George, I urge you to read up on Infant Sibling Disease from The Honest Toddler. He is wise.
I was on the #GreatKateWait for like…forever now, hoping to hear any name other than Charlotte, to no avail. I hope that Princess Charlotte Elizabeth Diana proves to you naysayers that hated the name Charlotte when I used it a whopping four years ago and thought it was old and outdated know that it is CLEARLY royalty-worthy and that I WAS RIGHT ALL ALONG.
I also know, based on the text messages I’ve gotten, that a million of you zoomed over to see what I had to say about Princess Beautiful stealing my precious baby name – only to find nothing.
So, now, for the serious part. This is raw and difficult to write.
For those of you that noticed that my Facebook is gone, I’m still alive. I’m not gone forever, I just feel like I’m suffocating and I need to crawl into a hole where I kind of stay behind the scenes and don’t feel like I am constantly disappointing people. My Facebook isn’t an act or a persona – it’s not geared for entertainment (though I know it can be funny) and I don’t sit and think of funny statuses to post, nor do I decide my worth based on how many likes or comments I get on posts (though I’m always shocked – I cannot even believe you guys care enough). In essence, that’s just a perk; I genuinely post whatever is on my mind, and I have observational humor that I think a lot of people relate to. But at the end of the day, there is no act, no alter ego – this is just me.
And right now, that “me” person just wants to crawl into a hole and be alone for a thousand different reasons. And that can be incredibly hard with an online presence that seems (at times) as though it is larger than life. So I’m not gone for good, just for a little bit. It may be a day, I really don’t know at this point. I just know that where I am right now, in this moment, I don’t have enough “me” to be present.
I have a Some E-Card calendar on my desk for today, and it’s…really pretty accurate for how I feel at the moment. If you’re the praying kind, feel free to send a shout up. Thanks, guys.